Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my right eye. It was followed by quick jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe discomfort behind one eye that lasts for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient healing records suggest unusual treatments for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major artery that delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common headache disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are managed with acute therapy only. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Jason Pacheco
Jason Pacheco

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